Amazingly enough I’m alive!
I got in a great workout today.
I was a tad afraid it was going to wind me badly because of time off but it was actually enjoyable. It’s time to go up a level or extend my amount of time. It feels great to see the changes just from doing this for 2 weeks so I can’t imagine how it will be in a few months. I used to have 2 great muscles right above my hipbones at the bottom of my stomach, used to be tight. While I don’t hold aspirations to have my 22 year old body back I’m certainly all for making this 38 year old body as fit as it could be. AND still not one puff of cigarette smoke in a LONG time…over 30 days for sure.
I’ve been trying to keep myself busy mentally as well today. We’ve got a lot going on at work and deadlines coming up. “RUFUS” is scheduled to be deployed by Friday. I want to name the next launch set, which won’t be for a while so I’ll be able to come up with a good name. I think work is going well and I’m finally feeling like I fit in with all the disparate personalities. I’ve come to know where most people are coming from, and once I digested that it became easier. I was going through the wiki the other day and came across some of the original Tabblo charters and other documents…it’s so interesting to see and read those items knowing where the company is now. It’s important to remember why the company was started in the first place, which is easy to forget when you’ve got big expectations hanging over your head. It’s also critical to enjoy what you do and I hope that everyone enjoys what they do because I know I do. I want to keep doing it. =)
On the personal front I’m doing. I miss Alex. It seems that 17 year olds have busy lives and I shouldn’t expect a call every day. The new headlight set I ordered for my car wasn’t right and I’ve got to pay to ship it back. My laptop video card stopped functioning so I was FORCED to use a Mac for about an hour. The girl I like is giving me a stiff-arm to the jaw, keeping me in the dreaded “friend-zone.” That last one is so tough, I haven’t had a bent heart in a while…hehe. Go figure…that’s almost funny if it didn’t sit so poorly. Who would have thunk I had a heart? So, yeah…I’m hanging in there just trying to do the right thing on all fronts.
I’m about to lose it and go on a cigarette and non-diet soda binge!!!!!!
Ok, maybe not…but I’m not having fun on many levels. I found it difficult to be Mr. Pessimistic so I’m going to work on Mr. Cynical, which I can do much better.
I’m betting one or maybe even two my personal demons listed above might be resolved, but probably not the right ones. How’s that for cynicism?
- INXS – This Time
- Violent Femmes – Blister in the Sun
- Alanis Morissette – Hands Clean
- John Mayer – Daughters
- Jamie Cullum – 21st Century Kid
- Pearl Jam – Crazy Mary
- Velvet Revolver – Slither
- Benny Goodman – Mambo Swing
- Foo Fighters – Everlong (Acoustic)
- Pete Townsend – Let my love open the door