Getting through time.
I completely agree with the fact the shortest distance between two points is a straight line.
That being said, I put on blinders, follow a specific and set routine, and try to live within my head for stretches of time that I need to “get through.” Times like those would include heartache, waiting for something big to arrive, or just a period of time I know I’ll be no good for anything…like this 3 month period I’ll be taking Methotrexate.
I’ve done this before for a significant amount of time. I purposefully exclude the outside world and really focus inward and work hard to be solitary…which seems to help me get through the tough times…right? What if what I’m doing ISN’T helping but making this time harder. What if having someone close to me would make those times easier? I’m not sure…but I do know that I’m entering one of those phases now and I’ve got no one…in fact…that’s partly the reason why I’m about to zone out.
Maybe if I just keep working out, take this medication like I’m supposed to and keep to myself I’ll be ready to try again in a few months. Maybe by then I’ll be over her too.
So…I’m becoming as temporo-dynamic as possible. I want to create as little temporal turbulence as possible and get to my destination as quickly as possible.