I wish I knew what it was that I was looking for. I guess that it would be nice to just be content with every day instead of needing something to focus on…but I guess that’s asking a bit too much.
The working out went well the morning. When I entered the gym there were people on MY eliptical machine but I handled it well. Using another machine didn’t bother me as much as I thought and soon I was focused on finishing rather than which machine I was on. Taking a shower in the morning isn’t as big of an inconvenience as I thought it would be, in fact, it’s nice because there is no lolly-gagging. My muscles seem to be responding and I’m getting stronger again, which I love. The next thing I need to work on is stretching, which I’m sure will help.
I’m still a bit unsettled though. The next few days/weeks are going to get worse and I’m hoping to have the strength and discipline necessary. I’m definitely feeling pressure, coupling this discipline with a stressful situation will prove difficult, but I’m tough.
Anyhoo…off to lunch!